那追着云跑的人

搔首弄姿

2011-11-19T07:47:00.001+08:00

台上一分钟，台下十年功。

台下的人努力非常，恨不得马上登台；台上戏子把演技发挥得淋漓尽致，却恨不得马上退场。

从懵懂不知、天真无邪；略知一二、班门弄斧；到熟能生巧、经验老到，你我竟是无从选择，任其改变。

没有选择的我们是抱着何种心境？既来之，则安之？能否是心甘情愿的？

这似是自然而然的，顺其行者敞开心胸，开怀接受，心想：这本该如此；你我似双手被捆绑，被另一只无形的大手一把推上了那舞台，回首万般皆是梦。

台下观众等着看戏，你我是戏子又非戏子，只好搔首弄姿，风情万种，也就入戏了。

曲终、人散，你我却还在，搔首弄姿。

很累、很辛苦

2011-10-28T18:41:00.000+08:00

好想扯着嗓子大喊：我很累了，这真的很辛苦，什么时候我才可以休息？

真的，读书很累，在这儿读书更累，每天不间断的reading list让我都快疯了，一篇又一篇的article，有完没完啊？!

每节课之间的空档我得阅读，回到宿舍也得读，若不读那根本跟不上课程，真是无奈！

好了，牢骚发完了，日子还是得过，书还是得读，我还是我。

还未行到水穷处

2011-10-15T04:45:00.002+08:00

之前一直说着远赴英伦留学，转眼间自己已经在这儿过了三个星期，又是我人生中的新驿站。

人在异乡，终于能深刻体会作为游子的滋味。我在马来西亚时，常常会想：在英国的三年肯定是精彩无比的，伦敦呢，比马来西亚好太多太多。现在正体验着伦敦生活的我还是很认同马来西亚与之相比是差了一大截，可是我却很想念那常常比上不足、比下有余的家乡。这里一切都很方便，很多事都可以很简单的完成，那为什么没能虏获我的心？哈，简单来说，我不属于这里，这里自然也不属于我的。在自己家里，无论多凌乱不堪，那也是能让你舒舒服服躺下休息的小窝；在别人家里，不管主人家把房子设计的多有心思，你也觉得尴尬，不可能像在家那般舒适。道理是一样的，这儿样样都好，可我始终不是在这里土生土长的，故而事事拘谨，少了的就是马来西亚给我的那抹舒服。

马来西亚的烟民算多了，可这里更多，而且是多很多！我每天清晨都会步行大约半小时到学校，途中，每条街道上都有很多烟民在一旁吞云吐雾，越过了这个，前面还有很多个，一面走一面抽烟的也是大有人在，简单来说，要在伦敦吸进一丝新鲜空气根本就是奢求！在这里，我吸进的不是氧气，一氧化碳则更为贴切。

我的大学并非一所校园大学，只是有好几栋大学楼分散在各个角落，整体而言就成了“伦敦政治科学与经济大学”。这所大学是一所品牌大学，其学生毕业后都不愁没有好工作，有名的会计楼、律师楼都会在这儿物色人选。无论如何，花着缴税者的钱上大学的我都会依照合约回马来西亚完成那六年的服务。我并没有高尚的爱国情操，只不过有借必换是我的原则，即使不愿为政府服务，还钱也一样。这是原因其一，再者，因为一些英国移民局条例的更改，领奖学金出国者皆得获得奖学金提供人的同意方可留英。在马来西亚，情况再怎么糟，那也是养育我的土地，我在那里生活是理所应该、理所当然的。在别的地方，譬如英国，情况再怎么好，我最多也只当个二等公民，这又有什么意义呢？

任何事，亲身体验后总会有另一番体会。

最近接触到一句出自王维之笔的名句：行到水穷处，坐看云起时。

在这所大学虽然很不容易，事事得靠自己，所学、所遇之人事物皆与以往不同。上周，我还在质问自己：这个地方，这所大学，还有现在的一切，究竟是不是我想要的？曾几何时，我很担心自己会有‘行到水穷处’的一天，那我该如何？再想想，现在只是开始，未来也是未知，我凭什么这么早下定论呢？

在这里一切都很不容易，学业上更得加上一大把劲，辛苦是毋庸置疑的了。可是，我还未行到水穷处，即使行到了，那就坐着看那渐渐升起的云朵吧。

不经一番寒彻骨，焉得梅花扑鼻香？

Time!

2011-09-17T15:53:00.001+08:00

I need more more TIME!!!!

This is the last weekend I could spend at home before leaving Malaysia, but my to-do list is endless; going down to KL on Monday for visa collection and delivery of passport to JPA, pack everything: utensils, clothes, bed sheets, duvet cover, books, stationery, etc. etc. How I wish I could have more time at home...

Flight to London has been rescheduled to 22nd September, 11.40pm. Mum and dad are going down to KL with me on this coming Wednesday and send me to KLIA the next day. Regrettably, kahwai couldn't send me, she will only finish her work around 6pm and JPA asked us to be there by 6pm. Funny right? My flight is at 11.40pm but I have to be there 5 hours earlier!

I still don't know how it feels to say good bye to my family and friends in Malaysia and leave the land on which I was brought up till today.

Finally, it's time for me to step out from this comfort zone and widen my horizon with new experiences on foreign soil. New page of life; new environment, new people, new weather, new language of speaking, but still the same person, me. :)

能做好自己就很好

2011-09-05T13:57:00.004+08:00

现在的人要求很高，对自己要求高，对别人要求更高。例子？呵，一抓就是一大把。

老板向员工要求业绩，父母向孩子要求成绩，业绩要好，成绩也要棒。

不说别人，就是我自己也是个要求高的人。虽知天外有天，人外有人，可遇见学术、运动、乐器、语言，样样精通的人，我总忍不住要问自己一句：为什么与之相比，我如此逊色？怎么我不能像她一样，是个allrounder? 哎呀，这种问题谁能给我答案啊？这种问题，反复思考，徒增烦恼。

对别人又如何？还不是一样。看着别人完成的工作，我会想：怎么就不能把工作做好些？为什么你就不能像他那么能干？
这么想着想着，烦恼也不请自来了。

如果能接受自己、接受别人，烦恼自然消失。

接受自己的能力，明白自己能做的是什么、能做得最好的又是什么，然后把自己能做好的事做到最好，这就可以了。人的能力各异，别人能做好力所能及的事，你就该感激涕零了。

量力而为，量入为出，是否不求上进？非也非也。要一个人做好自己也并非易事，心里总是羡慕着别人，放着自己的事不管，成天想着要如何像他人那般厉害，最后也只会落个一事无成。要求上进的大前提是能把自己的事做好，否则一切免谈。

曾有人问我：有****就很不错了嘛，为什么要求这么高？
我答：因为这是我能做好的事，知道是自己能力所及的事，我无论如何都想做到最好。我不要求自己能像一些人，集百种才华于一身，只要求自己能把做好的事做得最好，那我已万分满足。

要知道，人的毛病如此之多：懒惰、贪婪、小心眼，若真的能做好自己就很不容易了。

London! London! :DDD

2011-08-12T00:36:00.002+08:00

Results!!! Again, after I had been refreshing the same webpage for about an hour, it just popped out and I saw A*A*A*and A!!! LSE!!! I'm coming!!! So glad I hit my uni offer requirement. :) Thank you so much!

You have heard my prayers! THANK YOU :)

Again.....

2011-08-10T22:18:00.004+08:00

Again, here comes the day I have to wait and fight my nervousness which is growing bit by bit in anticipation of the release of A-Level results tomorrow. Haha... yeah, I'm that kind of person that would be anxiously waiting for results, couldn't sleep at night, heart beats super fast and butterflies start flying around in my stomach... Haha..

Out of curiosity or rather stupidity, I logged in to the results website to check if the results have been 'accidentally' released earlier, knowing that CIE will not release our results until 7am tomorrow.

This is a bad habit: I will write something on this blog to express my anxiety and panic every time before getting results, don't know, maybe this makes me feel better.. Haha!

Whatever it is, come what may, results are already there, printed in black and white, unchangeable, we will get it eventually, just a matter of time. But but but, I hope it won't disappoint me, my family and my lecturers :)

All I can do now is PRAY HARD! Haha... Namoamitabha...

去旅行吧

2011-07-29T22:17:00.003+08:00

去旅行吧！读万卷书不如行万里路呢。

刚从清迈回来，其实也趁机到缅甸边界转了一圈，收获不大，体会倒是挺多的。

出发的时候总觉得自己有些心高气傲，也许是太久没跟家人一起旅行，无忧无虑的当儿，父母的疼爱之下我就有些骄纵了。所以说，不劳而获的太安逸、舒适的生活就会把人给惯坏的，沉溺在幸福当中就忘了现实。到寺庙参观，我觉自己的心境不对，走下三百多级的楼梯，我在心里说：我要心平气和，不要心高气傲。想想自己真是太年轻，人生历练哪里足够，年少轻狂自是不用说的。磨炼我的日子快来了，虽然知道肯定是辛苦的，可再艰难我也得熬过去，温室小花可不是我的那杯茶。

不经一番寒彻骨，焉得梅花扑鼻香？是吧。

好了，说说缅甸之行吧，所见所闻让我有了深刻体会呢。

试想：如果你现在马上失去所拥有的一切，不管是物质上的享受还是最基本的教育机会，统统都没有了，你会怎样？还能生活下去吗？若是我吧，我想自己肯定接受不了。再试想：如果你自出生便与现在所拥有的一切无缘，你又能不能生活到现在？

哈哈，有点难懂吧。我想说的是，幸福、幸运的我们并没有选择这样的成长环境，可是我们就这样，也不知到底是怎样的，就比别人幸运了，是吧？那么，贫穷、贫困的那些家庭，他们选择了那样的生活环境吗？天生残缺的人，是他们自己选择了不幸吗？当然不是，他们也是不知到底是怎样的，就比别人不幸了。没有人能选择自己的出生、自己的父母，可以的话，谁不想幸福快乐的成长、生活？

所以，不要看不起没钱的人，不要以异样的眼光注视那些不幸的人，因为这不是他们所能选择的。

幸福的各位请时时感恩，你已经够幸运的了，尽尽绵薄之力帮帮不幸的人吧。

去旅行吧，看看外边的世界，看看别人是怎么生活的，也看看上流社会的奢华跟最低阶级的贫苦可以形成怎样的一个强烈对比。

Imperfect

2011-05-19T14:49:00.002+08:00

Things can't be perfect, I can't be perfect, just like the mathematics paper today. One question on vector, one small should-not-have-made mistake, claims me 3 marks. Maybe still good, still excellent, but not perfect.

I have expectations on myself, and they are not very low, I would say. But I think one must know how to accept imperfections and Kah Kah is learning to accept and take imperfections as inevitable in life.

聪明的人，得失心重；有智慧的人，懂得接受事实

Not meant to be

2011-04-15T23:46:00.002+08:00

Distractions. These can be fatal when it comes to having exams.

Why do I have distractions? Coz I care too much. Sometimes things are just not meant to be, you can't get everything you want in the world by just working hard. Effort is not the price, and the actual price... I can't afford.

I thought I always know my priority, but there are times when I'm shaky. Rationality is what I need during these times.

Sometimes things are just not meant to be, and this is one of the 'sometimes', I guess. It will be yours when it is right.

Choices

2011-04-13T20:04:00.003+08:00

Offer from LSE!!! It surprised me so much! I didn't expect myself to get offers from LSE AND King's College! It is a blessing, I would say, and THANKS!
The first question I have to ponder upon after getting my 5 offers is: King's or LSE? It is a rather difficult decision to make and either way, there'll still be a road not taken. It is an inevitable thing that I would always think about how would my life have been if I've chosen the other one, regardless of my final decision.

Before receiving LSE's reply, I had sort of made up my mind that I would go for King's no matter what, but when you've gotten something that most people desire and is hard to get, the opportunity cost seems enormous if I were to forgo it. LSE = 'almost perfectly good' employment prospect, that's what everyone thinks and I think it is a FACT. This would definitely help if I want to apply for jobs under Talent Corp under JPA or to further my studies under the Pelajar Cemerlang programme. So this is the GREATEST advantage of taking up LSE's offer. The one which worries me most is the level of stress there. Meeting, studying, competing with all the smart people around the world, what level of stress to be expected there??

Life can change because of choices. So, let me think first. :)

Finally :)

2011-03-25T05:58:00.004+08:00

Offer from King's College, London!!! Finally! :)

It was such a long wait, and I'm still waiting for reply from LSE. ><>

Yesterday while I was preparing my dinner in the kitchen, Yi Lyn- my housemate who is known for her laughter was watching TV and I heard a line from one of the actors "whatever belongs to you is always yours and whatever that doesn't belong to you, it will not be yours at the end of the day." I was pondering at the line and realised that, it is always true.

Kelvin got his offer from King's yesterday morning and while celebrating his excitement, I was wondering where is mine. We had been waiting for replies from the london unis since mid-February and now as the end of March is approaching, our patience is exhausted. Just now when I woke up from sleep and opened my door, Yi Lyn told her good news: offer from King's. I'm happy for her, but again, I asked: where is mine?

When I checked my email just now and saw an email from King's web admission system, then I know the verdict has been delivered, it would either be an offer or a rejection. Though with hope, I was trying to keep it as minimal as possible, because it is always like that: the higher and the more you hope for, the disappointment you will get is equal. Then, I saw the decision, "We are pleased to inform you that we are making you a conditional offer........" Is that real? I read again... IT IS REAL!!!! Yes! I got an offer from King's College!

What a good day today! Haha... Everything seems good! :) :D

And THANKS, to everyone and everything!

:)

2011-02-22T02:47:00.001+08:00

With a peaceful heart, I hope everything will be fine for me tomorrow. :)

Thank you so much

2011-02-11T15:33:00.002+08:00

Thanks for the blessings!

A for AS history, offers from cardiff, nottingham and warwick, CIE award, and many other good things that have happened in my life, I'm really grateful for what I've been given. Thanks!

I was sad for YOU have taken Molly away from me, may Molly rest in peace. Life is not exchangeable for ANYTHING. I believe that, always.

And my housemates, thanks for being my friends and family in these 2 years of college life. We stay together, study together, have fun together, hang out together, work like there is no tomorrow together and WE EXCEL TOGETHER!

Thanks to Ms Sathya! :)

明天

2011-01-24T01:22:00.002+08:00

明天只是普通的星期一，我是这样告诉自己的。

明天是重考成绩放榜的日子，这能是个普通的星期一吗？

明天，我只可能有两种心情：非常高兴，因为拿到自己一直想要的成绩；或非常伤心，因为我又让自己失望了。

现在的我，不算是坐立难安，但要说心里十分平静却是假的。每每想到明天，严格来说其实是今天，我就快要知道自己重考的结果，我的心就往下沉了一下。

最近总是诸事不顺，常常让我很烦心。我不想受到任何打击，尤其是明天，可我好像根本没有选择的余地。可能是因为最近太多事了，我真的觉得好累好累，总提不起劲，什么都做不了。一个打击，我便要崩溃了，请别对我如此残忍。

真想逃离现在这一切，到某个地方休息，让自己充电。休息不就是为了走更长远的路吗？

其实换个角度想想，现在真的不用太悲观，明天还是个未知数，说不定是好消息呢？要真是坏消息，大不了就哭个三天三夜罢了！有时真觉得自己很矛盾，一时乐观，一时又悲观。再怎么说，我清楚知道此刻自己的心是怀着希望的，我对自己有信心，我尽力了，现在也只能祈求明天会带给我无限希望。

不是说天天好天吗？我衷心希望明天会是个好天。

好多好多

2010-11-11T21:19:00.002+08:00

重考结束，我的心轻松了好多。
原本这个月的21日大家说好要去国家公园，可是因为天气的关系，并不适合这个时候去，一切只好作罢。
最近有好多好多事，不，应该是接下来会有好多好多事。
我的室友拉拉队练习时不小心从高空坠下，敲到头，幸无大碍；妈妈走路时不留心，被阶级绊倒，跌伤了手臂。祈求神明保佑，让我身旁的人都安然无事吧。
12月的假期，我跟艾莹会去江南，大约一个星期，是应该去旅行，看看外边的这个花花世界。旅行回来，我得参加一个法律课程的入门考试，其实现在就应该开始准备了，自己还懒洋洋的，真是的！12 月其实不是假期，我得准备一月一回来就开始的学期考试，真的没有多少时间。
说到一月，考试结束后，月尾有个英文语文测试，而1月24日是重考放榜的日子！接下来是华人农历新年，也是我们全家人一家团聚的时候。
新年过后，接下来的3月、4月，我都得埋首苦读、挑灯夜读了！5月、6月大考，不容有失！7月可能会去香港（当然是跟艾莹啦），8 月大考成绩放榜！这是关键时期，大考成绩将决定我的未来大学。
9月末或10月杪，我将飞离这片养育了我19年的土地，离开家人、朋友，到海外为自己的前途拼搏。
真不知这一切一切能否成真，现在还是未知数，不是吗？
不过，我已经知道来临的这年里，自己的路该怎么走。
充实的生活是很重要的，空虚的日子真能让我精神崩溃。现在的我，感谢自己所拥有的一切。:)

My heart is free :D

2010-10-28T23:21:00.002+08:00

Struggle with history ended today at 4.00pm when I handed up my answer booklet. I've worked hard and put in every single effort I can, please bless me. My heart and my mind are free now, I can smell freedom! A heartfelt thanks to Ms Sathya, who has spent so much time having classes with us while those should be her resting time. =)

It is so disappointing...

2010-08-13T11:52:00.001+08:00

3As and 1B, B for history. This is what I got for my AS and I really see myself as such a disappointment when friends around me got 4As. This has never happened before in my previous major examinations, never a B. I just can't believe it nor accept it.

There are 16 straight As in my batch and I'm not one of them. This is the worst thing that can ever happen to me and it just happens...

To get over this, it is definitely won't be easy for me. The morning I woke up and checked my result, I felt nothing, really nothing, but when my friends kept sending good news, I knew my heart was filled with intense sadness. I cried a few times, tears just flowed out of my eyes, uncontrollably. The best healer is probably time and sleep. I slept a lot, hours and hours of sleep, which I hoped would make me forget about the B. Yesterday and today, not long, but was long enough for me to accept the reality. Although I got a B for history; although I was and still am sad, life still goes on. At the end of the day, I still have to face all these.

Today, the photoshoot session was terrible for me. I couldn't even take my own result, would celebrating others' straight As be easy for me? I'm glad it was over.

Now, B won't go away or become an A just because I'm sad. I've decided to resit history paper in October. RM600 for this second chance and I swear I'll make the best of this, whatever it takes!

This is sad enough for me but I feel it has taught me a lesson or has pulled me back from something. God is still with me, all the time, I always believe, always. I'm still being blessed, it is just a little part of life that I need to get through. This B will be my motivation to get the best result I can in A2.

Whatever has happened has already happened, I can't change that, but I'm sure I can change something that is yet to happen in my life. If I'm still being haunted by this B, then I really lose the game. Thank God for giving me the courage to face failures in life and these are what would make me stronger.

I'm still fighting for an A or even an A* for history and I believe I will succeed! :D

五味杂陈

2010-06-09T01:51:00.002+08:00

今天风影的心中五味杂陈，感觉心的一角不小心掉落，再找不回来了。

自由

2010-05-27T20:18:00.002+08:00

还有一个星期，只要这七天一结束，风影便能毫无负担地吸一口自由的空气。加油吧，风影！明灯在前，祝福在后，一定能顺利走完这段路。

Heaven? Or Hell?

2010-05-14T23:02:00.002+08:00

This morning was AS law, I can never imagine myself taking AS, even I'm already having exams now. Never know why, I just couldn't finish everything, perhaps the most apparent reason is my laziness. XP I can still remember this morning while we were all waiting to enter the examination hall, well to be accurate, it is a classroom. Eva said, it seems like everyone is waiting, either go to heaven or hell. I told myself, and at the same time telling everyone around me, that we will go to heaven and we ARE GOING to heaven. The law of attraction works on me and I always believe if you want something, the one you need to trust the most is you, your ownself.

Nobody wants a 'B' for law, neither do I. I said, all of us are going to get 'A' for AS law and we will not need to retake the exam in November. Believe it or not, one's belief and the way he or she thinks does make difference. The law paper today was not easy, indeed it was quite tough, with questions combining a few topics. Before today I had a feeling that our law paper will not be easy, probably it was just my instinct. I couldn't sleep last night, thinking all about this law paper. The moment I opened the question paper, I was scared because I had confidence in only 2 questions out of 6 and we need and we must answer 3.

Until now, I'm still thankful, to anyone. I answered 3 questions, although did not do really well in one of the questions, I'm glad that I was not killed by the question. Not so sure if I'm going to heaven or hell, but I BELIEVE and I know I will go to heaven and get my 'A' for law. :)

我来自华小

2010-05-01T01:19:00.002+08:00

风影在育权华小，一间名不见经传的乡村小学，上了六年的启蒙教育。这所华小，原本只是木板盖的，后来才装修、扩建成今天这所砖块盖成的学校。育权华小一共只有六班，每年级一班，每班差不多有三十多名学生，是名副其实的一间“小学”。印象中，老师们个个都十分尽责，对待乡村孩子，更难得的是那份耐心与关怀。

在乡下，孩子上学没有城市孩子那般容易。有些时候，若下倾盆大雨，一些地方可能会有土崩的现象，大树也可能倒在路中央，这些都会让父母们无法送孩子上学。许多乡村家庭的经济状况不好，但父母们抱着的态度是：再穷也不能穷教育。这便是华人执著的地方，无论如何也得送孩子上学，多少要受几年教育。穷困的家境让孩子没有能力购买参考书，一些城里来的老师看着也觉心酸，总想尽办法，为的就是让学生阅读更多。在乡下念过小学，也到过城里念中学，风影看到的，很多时候就是那份不一样的教学态度与老师对待学生的心态。城里或是乡下的老师，前者多一份专业，后者多一份敬业，两者也许是不能相提并论的。

若论及国小，那可能要谈上更大的区别，但能将华小与国小区分的，不单单只是语言上的差别，还有更深入的那一层文化及素养。

戏

2010-04-21T21:33:00.004+08:00

风影彻底相信，也常常抱着感恩的心。不管是对谁，任何一位人生中的过客，风影都感激。也许是因为自己的思想范围宽阔了许多，看待事物的心态有了微妙的改变，总会觉得人生越来越像一出戏，要当一个出色的演员，就得从其他演员的身上学习及吸取经验，三流演员隐约透着失败的影子，而一流花旦以让人惊艳的方式诠释戏曲，他们都是借鉴，也是镜子，让你看清楚自己该以哪一种方式唱出自己的那出戏。人生亦然，所谓过客不也就是三流与一流的演员参杂在一起，有些可能让你的人生路更加坎坷，有些可能为你处处照拂。换个角度欣赏自己的这一出戏，现在让你举步维艰的过客不就在锻炼你吗？为你处处照拂的人可能是之前锻炼为你带来的硕果呢？

人生很精彩，像是一出引人入胜的戏，让你心痒痒地一直想知道接下来的情节，会否曲折离奇？会否带来丝丝感动？不好奇自己的这出长达一生的戏吗？风影要坐下，享受咖啡，继续欣赏自己这出戏，看看接下来的日子，远方的路，有什么在等待着风影，风影翘首以待......

舞鞋

2010-04-16T00:57:00.004+08:00

思故乡

2010-03-30T13:29:00.002+08:00

不是个离不开家的人，可是当下，心告诉我它很想家，思念着故乡的熟悉。

Mc Donald's

2010-03-16T21:27:00.007+08:00

Recently the most famous fast food franchise is promoting the special breakfast sets, advertisements are seen on tv, newspapers, brochures and etc etc. I guess no one can actually resist the food temptations when looking at the advertisement, the boiling eggs, the look-so-nice mc muffin, the wonderful aroma of coffee, almost a perfect breakfast! I've not tried any of the breakfast sets even though always want to grab one from the nearest Mc Donald's restaurant. The advertisement does look nice and attractive, but I would say there are still rooms for improvement. For instance, the advertisement promoting breakfast sets which I saw on tv is about a man who was on his way to working place managed to have a quick breakfast from Mc Donald's and that made his day. What about other sections of the society? Mc Donald's is not meant for working people only, I believe more creativity can be inserted into the advertisement, stop making it a typical one, try something new man!

原来也不是无话可说

2010-02-15T21:21:00.002+08:00

前晚还有昨晚，风影都是午夜过后才归家，正式升级为“夜猫子”一族。这两晚，风影跟曾经同窗六年的小学同学聚在一起，感觉好像回到了小学。除夕夜在观音庙，当他们邀约一起出去喝茶，风影是不太情愿的，找了好多借口推辞，之后没办法，拗不过他们，只好应邀。其实不想出去的原因也无他，就是因为每次出去都感觉好生疏，没有话题可聊，搞得场面很尴尬。除夕夜那个晚上，风影第一次发现原来自己在小学同学面前能如此滔滔不绝，天南地北，聊个没完没了。原来我们也不是真的无话可说，说起以前家良和伟宏怎么因为被换位子而生气我，而我又怎么向他们道歉，还真是有点恍如隔世。

就不知是为什么，风影总觉得，这次回来，他们对我有点过度热情了，尤其是家良，之前跟我没怎么说话，这次却句句扯到我身上。不管是什么原因，风影还是认为这是值得高兴的，至少我不再觉得大家有自己的生活后就距离很远，坐下来也相对无言。

明年将会是风影在离国前的最后一次在家乡过年，是该好好珍惜的。三年后，风影再回来家乡过年，只怕物是人非了吧。

高乌的除夕夜

2010-02-14T03:29:00.003+08:00

璀璨的烟火，宣告着新的一年的到来。

从来不曾放过孔明灯，今天是第一次。写下了全家人的愿望，是些什么愿望？我们全家人都希望在新的一年里合家平安、身体健康、心想事成、事事顺利。风影则希望自己的AS & A2 考试都能考获4个甲等，朝英国大学迈进。二姐希望平均分数能达3.5以上，获成绩优异奖。帮大姐许了个愿，希望她顺利觅得高薪职位，也帮妈妈许了个愿望，希望她生意兴隆。我们的孔明灯顺利升空，希望大家真能心想事成。孔明灯被风吹得越来越远，最后变成黑暗中的一点光，像陨石一样陨落，不知会在凡间哪个角落停下。

今天到观音庙时，遇见伟宏、康男、家良、康原、康富、培恩，一起到马来档喝茶聊天。平时大家各有各的生活，一年里也只有这么一次能见面。感觉上大家似乎都没有怎么改变，话题千变万化，家良的女朋友还有他的感情事，以后的发展，瞎扯着，竟扯到风影的身上，谈初暗恋——那自私自利的人。谈起以前在小学的种种，好像是昨天才发生的事。风影明白他们的用心，让话题绕着风影转，其实是不想有那种格格不入的感觉。每个人的人生是这么的不相似，仅有的交叉点或许也是值得珍惜的吧。

唉

2010-01-15T16:05:00.004+08:00

最近做什么事都提不起劲，可能是因为考试刚过，病菌就上门拜访了。头一直重重的，很痛，课室的冷气冷得我发抖，感冒了，鼻涕直流，喉咙也不听话，都喂了好多蜜糖了，还是痛！明明很累了，应该是倒床即睡，哪知竟难以入眠，早上却爬不起来，迷迷糊糊的，也许是睡姿不正确，睡得我的背椎很痛。唉，我到底是怎么了？

贪婪

2009-12-31T13:12:00.003+08:00

原来风影很贪心，怎么说？在家的时候，风影总是想：再多留几天就好了；姐姐也在家时，风影也会想：迟一些回去大学不好吗？风影当了游子这么多年，中一去了槟城，直到现在又在吉隆坡，都整整六年了，而每次假期，风影就会有很多贪心的要求，虽知不可能的，却总是忍不住在心里要求。
风影跟家人一起每天生活的日子实在短得可怜，前前后后，应该就只有七、八年。事情没有两全其美的，所以风影常常很贪心地想鱼与熊掌兼得。
从现在开始倒数，还有四十二天，风影才能再次踏上归家的路途。

让梦想起飞吧

2009-12-28T14:53:00.006+08:00

人因梦想而伟大，我说：人生因梦想而美丽。

5S1 年终冬季小聚会

2009-12-21T23:36:00.004+08:00

青牛的＂杯中洋葱＂～～～

丰盛的晚餐——Portuguese chicken

青牛、我、瑾沛

我与最可爱的班长——佩涓

小小的陶瓷雪人

圣诞气息~

5S1 万岁！！！

Holiday starts

2009-12-05T01:44:00.002+08:00

I've waited for so long and holiday finally comes. Should feel excited and happy but I felt nothing, today is just like another normal college day. One month holiday? It doesn't seem like holiday to me. Book review, 20 law questions, tonnes of revision notes...... endless work and assignments!

By the way, we are going to Broga tomorrow! Just finished packing my stuff, XP... Going back to Penang on Monday, with one small luggage which is full of books and revision notes, one backpack full of notes and also my lovely laptop and another bag, which is full of my clothes, accessories, chargers, books and again, REVISION NOTES!!! I've no idea how am I going to carry so many things to One-U and bring them back to Penang...

Life

2009-11-27T22:17:00.007+08:00

Last week, I had a high fever and was almost sick for the whole week. Our Charity Club had an event to raise some funds to help the orphans. So, what had we done? We had a charity car wash (I washed 2 cars... XP) and also tried to get KDU students to perform at KDU Square, but it was really not easy to ask for money, even one buck, from people around. On Wednesday, we went to the orphanage - Sunbeam's Home 日辉之家. There were 80 of us and the place is really small, so they decided to go to a field nearby. However, that's not such a good idea to play with the children under the hot sun. The food provided was not very suitable for children, it was nasi lemak and most of them can't take spicy food. Most of the children couldn't finish their food, so the food was wasted. Our aim or objective was to help the children, bring them some fun, not forgetting at the same time we must educate them. The children were treated like Kings and Queens, which I thought was the wrong way. Actually I had a bad headache on that day, but since it was just a visit to an orphanage, I decided to go. When we were at the field in the middle of the day, the hot weather made my headache worsened, I felt as if i was going to faint.

As we were occupied for the whole day on Wednesday, my history presentation was postponed to next week. (oh, how lucky am I!!!) Anyway, law quiz was still on Thursday. I did study the notes and my law textbook, but not thorough, that's why I was not confident for the test. I was lucky enough as those questions which the answers were unknown to me were not directed to me. I scored 2.5 marks, the highest in the class was 3.0, so still ok for me. Ms Sathya said that was just the first round of law quiz and we will do the second round on next Monday. If we don't do well in second round, we will sit for law test on Tuesday, that's what she told us. Even if we do well, we will still have to do assignment.

"Never trust your lecturer or trust him or her only 25%." - quoted from Ms Sathya

Next week is the last week for this term and after that we will have our long holiday for the month of December. Next Saturday and Sunday, we are going on a Broga trip. We will have activities like flying fox, rock climbing, mountain biking, wake up at 5 o'clock early in the morning to catch the sunrise and barbeque at night, hope that would be fun!!!

KDU Sports Carnival 2009 - Reaching for Greatness

2009-11-15T03:45:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was KDU Sports Carnival 2009 and it was held in KDU Auditorium, original venue should be Sri KDU field but due to some reasons, the field was not available for our sports carnival. Actually it was an advantage to our marchpast and cheerleading team, since we had been practising in the auditorium all the while.

I woke up 4.30am and took a bath, then received a call from Ivor. Woke everyone up then went up to Eva's unit for the face-painting, merely some leopard dots. We reached college at seven something in the morning, everyone was so excited about the event, even Ms Sathya painted her face!!! The Blue team, which was the School of Hospitality and Tourism, was the first to perform and Yellow team, which was the Management and Pre-U Centre, went after Blue. Our preformance was so great and it impressed everyone in the auditorium!!!

Our Yellow team won the FIRST PLACE for marchpast and cheerleading!!! Everyone was happy and from what we heard from Ms Ong, we are going to have a celebration party soon!!! It has been very long since the last time I participated in such events. Although it was very tiring, I did not regret spending so much time for marchpast practices everyday.

So, Sports Carnival is over, holiday will start in 3 weeks time, GO BROGA!!!

Friday

2009-11-06T10:25:00.002+08:00

This morning, Economic class was cancelled for a briefing and introduction of two new clubs. The Charity Club is founded by Dipti while the Public Speaking Club is founded by Sasha. Participation in the Charity Club is compulsory for all Pre-U students whereas it is optional for the Public Speaking Club. It is indeed very true that active participation in these clubs will definitely make my CV looks better and probably I might stand a higher chance during universities' interviews. However, due to the fact that I don't have that much time to spend on these activities, I didn't join the Public Speaking Club. Yea, those people are great, they found a club and organise activities, they are "shining". I know myself and I'm satisfied with what I have now, I will keep doing what I want to do. Everyone do have a very different definition for happiness in life, and I will always stick to mine.

By the way, Pre-U centre has organised an adventure trip to Outbac Broga on 5th and 6th of December, I'm joining. Hope it will be a fun and unforgettable experience. ^-^

硕果

2009-11-02T23:55:00.002+08:00

上个星期，风影忙得不知今夕是何年，累得快连自己都忘了。除了准备今天的seminar presentation, 星期四还有个法律测验，竟然要考两课，一小时之内作答两题，总之上个星期风影都是活在紧张、压力中，好不辛苦！今天轮到我们组的seminar presentation, Dipti, Alyssa还有风影都很紧张，总是担心怯场。我们三人不知有多少天都在通宵达旦地忙着准备presentation的slides，还得准备各自的讲稿，每人需present至少十分钟（十分钟其实长得让你惊讶），真是“台上一分钟，台下十年功”啊！像老牛一样辛苦耕耘，今天便是收成之时，好在“一分耕耘，一分收获”，成绩让我们雀跃万分！还记得刚刚Ms Hema 这么说：So far, this is the only group which has ( we thought she is going to continue her sentence with "exceeded 30 minutes for their slides presentation", but...) hit the 'A' grade. 这给予我们肯定的话语让我们感觉一切辛苦付出都是值得的，准备与努力并没有付诸流水！

今天也派发了上个星期的法律测验卷纸，考得相当不理想，但至少风影终于知道自己的问题和弱点何在，这样方能对症下药，下回也就是这个星期四的法律测验风影一定可以好好发挥的！自上个星期开始，每个星期四都会有法律测验，直至考试结束。虽然会很累，但多一些测验是好的，这样才能保证考试时万无一失。

The Dream

2009-10-23T10:52:00.002+08:00

Last night, I dreamt of my grandpa who had passed away for 6 years, or perhaps I should say I think I dreamt of him. It was so clear in my dream that he was talking to me in front of our old house, asking me to keep the clothes as it was going to rain. I remembered he asked me to put an apple on a plate and I asked him how was his life after his death, he said everything was fine. He wanted me to take care of myself as he was going to leave. After that, I saw him waving to me and said good bye, I kneed down and cried. After that, when I turned to my back, I saw a group of old people, it seemed that they were my ancestors, coming to take my grandpa away. This is the first time I dreamt of my grandpa since his death. Everything was so real in the dream and I wish it is not merely a dream. I woke up immediately after the dream and tried to recall everything. Grandpa, you will live forever in my heart.

累

2009-10-17T02:03:00.005+08:00

最近的生活让风影感到很累，很疲乏，日子一天一天地消逝，似乎没有留下任何痕迹。生活的紧凑，每天千篇一律地重复着同样的事，让风影感觉自己已越来越像一部机器。

风影的人生目标并非要功成名就，也毋须家财万贯，而仅仅是生活中的快乐罢了。风影很明白，再潇洒也不能没钱过活，但再多的钱有些时候也不能代表什么。风影只要有足够的钱，能吃想吃的、买想买的，满足自己物质上的欲望便好了。功成名就的代价有多大？表面风光，背后的辛酸又有谁知？人生不是很长，短短几十年，何不活得有滋有味？

风影想开一间休闲咖啡厅，想学烘焙、做蛋糕，想到处流浪，四处旅行看看外边的世界...... 可是看看自己，现在正走着另一条不同的路。为什么？因为这似乎是风影应该要走的路，身旁的人对自己是有期望的，风影不能任性，也不想辜负了家人。是啊，风影宁愿辜负自己，也不想辜负他人，因为看着家人对自己感到失望的这种压力，风影着实承受不起。

凡事要往好的方面想，日子才不会难过。风影还是可以追求自己想要的，未来充满着种种可能性，这条路，风影会走下去的，直到自己有能力去追求梦想的那一天。

风影要昂头，展翅，飞向天涯海角。

75%???

2009-10-16T01:17:00.003+08:00

Finally I got my Law paper on Monday. The first name called by Ms Ash was my name. I received the paper from her and there was my marks- 75%, it's a B. To be candid, I'm not happy with my marks. I have written 9 pages of answer for 3 questions and I got 75 marks. One of my classmates wrote one and a half page for each question and she also got 75 marks, does that mean that what I've written are crap?? Quality is more important than quantity, I know this very well, but at the same time, I must also say that I wrote my answers according to requirements of the questions.

Because of this marks, my wonderful Monday was disrupted and I was "moodless" for the whole day. To get everything clear, I'm going to find out what did my answers lack of and how can I improve.

My Diet

2009-10-09T11:15:00.002+08:00

Thinking of this since long time ago -- lose weight. Without all the food temptations from Penang, I hope I can really do this. After the Raya break, I brought a lot of fruits from Penang and substitute fruits for my dinner everyday. I phoned kah wai and told her about this but she said actually fruits doesn't work, oats work better. So, the next day, which was last saturday, I went to 99 Speed Mart near my house and bought a big packet of the Quaker's Oats. I mixed the so-called instant oats with hot water and ate it. Guess what?? It tasted like the things vomited by someone. Luckily, my house mates told me, mix the oats with a spoonful of creamer milk and that will taste better. That's really a good suggestion! Since last saturday, I eat oats for my breakfast and dinner everyday and I really hope it works for me. Yesterday, Yi Lyn told me her uncle lost weights in two weeks time by mixing three teaspoonful oats, a little bit of salt and some water, but the thing is you have to leave it overnight. I tried it last night and ate it this morning. It was salty but did not taste weird, but what made it disgusting was that when I ate the first spoon, I felt like vomiting everything out. I managed to finish the whole bowl of "special oats"! Today is the first day, 13 days to go... Since I've already started, I will continued the so-called "tough journey" until 22nd of October and I will see the result. :P

Law Paper

2009-10-06T14:59:00.003+08:00

Today, we thought Ms Ash was going to distribute our term exam paper, but she was on medical leave, so we have to wait until next week to get back our paper, haiz... Three weeks.... I have been waiting for the paper... During Academic English class, we continued with our discussion on report writing, some groups already started with conclusion, next week they are moving on to Seminar writing. Luckily, we completed our discussion today, I guess we need to find some time to do the conclusion, so that our group is on the same pace as others. Next year, we are going to start with Genaral Paper, it is an extra subject in our AS and of course, not an easy one. Parent-Teacher Meeting is on 24th of October, dad and mum already come back from Australia that time so I think it is compulsory for them to come and Ms Sathya is going to tell them their daughter got a C for history. As far as I know, JPA is going to send me a warning letter and according to them, scholars whose results are not consistent are not eligible to fly too. Well, this is scary for me and that's why I am thinking of dropping history and take accounting, but, just considering.

考试

2009-10-02T20:52:00.004+08:00

考卷派回来了，有让风影高兴的，也有让风影气馁的。最满意的是数学，终于考获一百分，这是风影一直以来的心愿，自己之前的粗心不知让风影与这个完美分数擦肩而过多少回，希望接下来的考试都能保持着这个分数吧。经济虽然考得不错，有八十四分，是个甲等，但风影很清楚自己应该可以做得更好的。最让风影失望、气馁的是历史，风影竟只考获六十三分，好好的却多了个丙，自问于作答时已绞尽脑汁、尽力做到最好，怎知考完试以后竟然想到更好的答案，真是...

还有法律，最后一科，下星期二才能领成绩，真让人紧张！考法律这一科，最担心的是时间，总怕来不及写完答案，所幸风影最后还是做到了，顺利完成作答。老实说，风影对法律这科期望很高，希望可以拿最高分，盼望着即将来临的星期二不会叫风影失望吧。

因为历史拿了一个大丙，很快就要接受“审问”了。

假期就到此为止

2009-09-26T23:33:00.003+08:00

今晚是在槟城的最后一晚，明天一早就得搭巴士回到吉隆坡。这个假期，风影过得很开心，真正让自己放松了一回。逍遥的日子真短暂，转眼就过去，假期的结束表示又是得重新开始为前程打拼的时候了。

风影有点担心这次考试的成绩，心里总是忐忑不安，但该来的还是会来，逃避不了的，总得说服自己坦然接受一切。

人的一生如此漫长，以后回首，往往会发觉现在的大难题实在渺小到不行，不是吗？

老家

2009-09-24T19:54:00.004+08:00

今天到老家上香，四处看了看，思绪顿时回到儿时，那时的风影，无忧无虑。老家还是老样子，只不过有些东西被搬空了，人也不在了，有点“人去楼空”的感觉。

人面不知何处去，桃花依旧笑春风。

值得回味的点点滴滴

2009-09-23T14:20:00.007+08:00

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珍之重之

2009-09-23T00:23:00.003+08:00

星期五晚上回到槟城，星期六风影跟艾莹到新光大逛了一天，之后到时代广场逛跳蚤市场，到皇冠和大时代小说店溜达了一会儿，风影借了一本亦舒的小说，《一个女人两张床》，艾莹借了几本漫画。星期日下午，风影跟艾莹到Greenlane McDonald's，让艾莹看了好些相片，风影也逼自己温习一些功课，之后两人一起到Perak Road，想吃汉堡，怎知遇着马来新年，那摊子休息不营业，只好去吃西餐，好吃且食量惊人的两人觉不够饱，又到学校对面的大草场吃好吃的云吞干捞面，还吃了烧卖和“乐乐”，之后才心满意足地回家去。昨天是风影期待已久的同学会，大家决定办烧烤会，可是早上在海边办烧烤会真的是个错误！风影的脸还有许多人的背都被晒得红通通的，几乎灼伤。实在无法烤下去了，大家收拾东西，决定到艾莹家，把鸡翅膀炸了，然后留晚上吃。把鸡翅膀都炸完后（那实在是一浩大工程），大家一起到美丽家游泳，那凉凉的水真让人快活。之后，我们回到艾莹家，开始吃鸡翅膀，风影和艾莹每人各吃了十多只，还弄了玉蜀黍还有香肠。大家都谈起自己的生活，周围的人、事、物，畅谈至深夜才各自离去，风影也送了佩雯还有佩涓回家。

这一些都会是风影最美好的回忆，这些朋友是真正的朋友，风影绝对珍惜。艾莹，是风影最要好的唯一交心朋友，5S1/4S1是风影在修院五年所获得的无价之宝，风影自是珍之，重之。

终于结束了

2009-09-18T23:15:00.002+08:00

连续四天的考试终于结束了，风影终于可以松一口气，好好休息。这一次的考试，是风影十八年以来，最大压力、最紧张的一次考试，自然就让风影喘不过气来。

今天从吉隆坡回到槟城，风影并没有想象中的高兴，或者应该说今天风影的心情不是很好，不知怎么的，总是想起好多不愉快的事。

风影感觉自己与家人的关系变得疏远了，是为什么？

Malaysian Studies Presentation

2009-09-08T14:59:00.002+08:00

Today is our Malaysian Studies presentation. My group members are Yi Lyn, Brenda, Alyssa, Sasha & Eva. Wow, all are the creme de la creme... That's why I felt a bit pressure, as I must do my presentation as good as them, not pulling down the overall performance of the group. Luckily, I was presenting on the data obtained from the survey we have done, dealing with pie charts and bar charts. I was not as nervous as last time during Academic English, heart was beating at a normal rate... I have tried my best for the presentation, the only regret was Mr. Oo commented that my voice and pronounciations were not clear, perhaps it was because I have a little cough today, however, I really should improve on my pronounciation of words.

Exam starts on this Friday, better concentrate on revisions.

原来都是一样的

2009-09-06T22:53:00.002+08:00

人，原来都是一样的。

耕耘

2009-09-06T01:37:00.002+08:00

风影得像头牛一样默默耕耘，为的就是那让自己满意的硕果，真不可思议。快要考试了，下星期二还有presentation，report writing的introduction都还没开始动笔，风影真要咬紧牙关捱过去。今天荒废了一整天，是应该要温习的，好后悔！醒醒吧，风影，是时候开始努力了！

Weekends

2009-09-04T14:26:00.000+08:00

Today is Friday, the weekends are coming. Term exam is just around the corner, I should spend the weekends for my revision. Life is so tiring, I can't wait for the Raya holidays to come, really need some rest. Always tell myself: study hard, you have to go through all these!

It is annoying

2009-09-03T09:45:00.002+08:00

It is really annoying when someone just ignore what you are doing, as if you are not exist. Please learn how to respect others if you want others to respect you. Arrogance will make you fall from the highest position, stop thinking that you are the best of the top.

An ordinary yet special day

2009-09-01T10:38:00.002+08:00

Slep at 3.00am and woke up at 6.50am. For some reasons, I did not sleep well last night. Like usual, I followed the bus to college and went to the library to finish my law homework. What so special about today? It is raining now. I don't know why, but the rain can always make me happy.

What makes family members "family members"? I guess apart from the fact that they are related to each other by blood, it is because they depend on each other and that tightens the tie among family members.

存在

2009-09-01T02:47:00.007+08:00

如果风影说的话只是一阵微风，风影宁愿自己是哑巴。说出口的话似乎和藏在心底的话一样，一句也没被听进去，那与不说话有异吗？风影不是个需要群体生活的人，一个人，风影依然可以快乐过活。孤单与寂寞，至少比人与人之间的奸诈狡猾，来得容易应付。

清澈的雨水能洗涤心灵，希望即将来临的早晨也带来一场雨吧。

共鸣

2009-08-31T01:58:00.002+08:00

那天碰巧浏览了一位华文教育工作者的部落格，从他的文字中，风影读到了自己的幸运，也似乎触摸到一些与自己心底一样的感受，在某些方面，他的文字引起了风影的共鸣。不能为他做些什么，只想说：百勤，天无绝人之路，加油！

如果躲起来也可以生活，风影肯定是第一个躲得远远的。孤单或空虚，风影从不落泪，并非不想以泪水发泄，确实是一滴泪水也挤不出来，但风影会感觉自己的心被掏空了，摸摸心房，里边好像什么都没有。曾经很想逃避这个现实世界，甚至现在，风影依然很想，可现实能改变吗？人要上善若水，不管多么难以生存的地方，只要学会适应，还有什么不一样？

The Rain

2009-08-28T08:49:00.002+08:00

I slept at 4.00am and woke up at 6.50am today. It was raining heavily this morning. The moment we opened the door and walked out from the condo, cold wind blew towards us, it was very refreshing. When we were waiting for the bus just now, the rain reminded me those rainy days I used to have in Perak and Penang. I'm a rainy-days-lover, the rain makes me feel good and comfortable.

Academic English Presentation

2009-08-28T01:57:00.002+08:00

Today, I had a presentation on an academic journal, with my partner, Kit Mun. We were the 2nd group, before we entered the classroom, I started to feel like having butterflies in my stomach. When the 1st group, which was Vicky and Fen Fen, were presenting their academic journal with the topic of black hole, I couldn't listen to them as there were thousands of butterflies in my stomach and my heart was beating with an incredible speed. In a very short time, their presentation ended and Ms. Hema called,"the second group!" I carried my laptop to the front and put it on the table, it took me quite some time to plug the projector wire into my laptop as my hands were shaking. Kit Mun took the head start, she was very calm. Then, I proceeded with the article's scope. While I was talking, I could hear my own heartbeats and I could feel there was a tremble in my voice. I kept telling myself to calm down. Luckily, after I started my part of the presentation for some time, I felt much better and finally it came to an end.

When reading the comments given by Ms. Hema in an email sent by her just now, it somehow frustrated me, anyway there is still room for improvement, I shall work harder and perform better next time.

Reason for Life...

2009-08-23T03:20:00.002+08:00

What is the reason of life? We were born, then grow up, go through several stages, experience thick and thin in our lives, then we become old and waiting for the day to come. It seems we live to die. What reason do you have to keep yourself living on this earth? If you have no family, no friends, no career, nothing, can you find your reason for life? People say, life is colourful and meaningful. What gives life colours if it is just life, without anything? If life is hollow, will it be meaningful to live on?

What makes you so brave?

2009-08-21T11:38:00.002+08:00

What makes you so brave in life? Who gives you the courage to walk steadily without fear? If you were alone, looking back and find no one to give you support, can you continue your journey fearlessly? If you never know how good is warmth, you will never suffer in cold; if you never get help from anyone, fighting alone will never be a problem.

Invisible Circle

2009-08-13T08:34:00.002+08:00

Our 4S1 and 5S1 class blog, The Invisible Circle has been 'abandoned' by us for very long time. Just feel like viewing the blog, so I went to The Invisible Circle and read some posts. When everyone talked about their own life now, it seems the big puzzle of our class which used to join everyone together and make us a big happy family is scattered all around the world, or perhaps Malaysia? Last time, even the smallest thing happened in the class, everyone would know. Now? We will meet each other at gatherings organised by our dearest Phaik Kuan, but hardly know what happens in each other's life.

My life is getting busier and busier. Things happen around me in such an increadible and 'uncatchable' speed. Ai Yin was involved in an accident last week, the week I was able to spend 4 days in Penang and Perak. Eventually, when I was in Penang, time was being spent with her in hospital, oh thank god she was fine, no big injuries. This Friday is our college's Malay Cultural Night. We are going to present our choir and choral speaking, in a rather creative way. What's after the night? National Mathematics Competition in UTAR on Saturday, just to make my personal statement looks better in the future when applying for university, oh how pack is my schedule? Then, exam comes next! Exam will be held from 14th Sept t0 18th Sept, and in the evening of 18th Sept, which is a Friday, we will go home for 1 week raya break.

The past had passed, let's look for a better tomorrow!

活出自我

2009-08-08T23:32:00.004+08:00

风影常想：我们是为别人而活？还是为自己而活？我们尝试让自己完美，那又是以谁的标准衡量？为自己塑造的，是别人属意的人格，还是自己中意的性格？如果两者有所冲突，前者重要还是后者优先？要活出自我，谈何容易？每个独立个体的自我并不是人人都能以开明的态度接受。

社会治安，全民有责

2009-07-28T20:10:00.002+08:00

“安全社会、亮丽家园”全国征文比赛

社会治安，全民有责

至圣先师——孔子于《大同与小康》中曰：“货，恶其弃于地也，不必藏于己；力，恶其不出于身业，不必为己。是故谋闭而不兴，盗窃乱贼而不作，故外户而不闭，是谓大同。”义即：“ 财物，人们厌恶它被扔在地上，但不一定都藏在自己家里。力气，人们恨它不从自己身上使出来，但不一定是为了自己。因此奸诈之心都闭塞而不产生，盗窃、造反和害人的事情不会出现，因此出外也不必把门关上，这就是所谓的大同。”孔圣人所主张的大同世界是我们所向往的，可我们生活在的世界却恰恰与之背道而驰。现今社会，各类罪案频频发生，为了一己私欲而做出伤天害理之事者比比皆是，犯罪率直线上升。以强奸案为例，报告指出：2007年里共发生了1241宗强奸案，而2008年却飙升至4959宗，仅仅一年时间，犯案率竟增加了三倍，这也拉响了人民心中的警报。

我们的社会生病了，人民百姓之有社会渣滓，心存歹念、为了私利不惜危害他人的，致使社会治安不靖，人民不得安居乐业。制造罪案，威胁百姓和平的罪魁祸首莫过于那些利欲熏心的不法之徒，什么原因让他们昧着良心犯案？就绑架、抢劫、攫夺、诈骗等案件而言，犯案者无非是为了钱财，他们不愿劳动，却为了满足自己那似无底洞的物质欲望，而以最快捷、简单的方法——抢夺他人的财物。有能力犯下累累罪案的人岂会没有工作能力？他们是被金钱蒙蔽了良知！这些人可以心安理得地谋财害命，不久前我国便有两名丧尽天良的攫夺匪于光天化日下当街掠夺一名孕妇的手提包，酿成一尸两命的悲剧。良知敌不过当前的物质诱惑？匪徒罔顾他人性命，即使成为众矢之的也在所不惜。更甚的是，竟然有歹徒将四肢健全的孩童加以残害，再利用他们博取公众的同情心，骗取金钱，这又是何等残忍？叫人闻之心寒啊！

社会治安每况愈下，罪案接二连三地发生，以“打击犯罪、除暴安良”为己任的警务人员自然难辞其咎。虽说经济不景气把生活艰难的人逼向绝路，但警员的失职无疑是造就罪犯日愈猖狂，罪案倍增的因素之一。正常而言，民众拨电向警局求救，警员理应在最短的时间内给予协助，竭止罪案发生。反观大马皇家警察，民众拨电求救后，警员姗姗来迟的事件层出不穷，这便是人为疏忽导致罪案发生！身为维护法纪者岂会不明白救人如救火的道理？许多罪案的发生皆是可以避免的，警方便肩负着部分责任。以至今最让人忧心的攫夺案为例，若能增加巡逻部队，想必再斗胆的歹徒亦会有所顾虑，不敢“冒险”犯案，从而把犯罪率减至最低。据最近的新闻报导，数名年轻警员竟涉及一起强奸案件，而被革职查办。执法人员知法犯法，罪无可恕，本应为民请命、将歹徒绳之于法，可现在却做出天理难容之事，叫人民该如何是好？因此，我国警员纪律急需重新整顿。

今年的三八妇女节，我国妇女、家庭与社会发展部长莎丽扎揭示了个令人难过的事实——过去六年来，国内乱伦案增加了一倍。我们可将偷窃、抢劫等案件的发生归咎于犯案者对钱财的贪婪，而近年来连连发生，引起各界关注的强奸、乱伦、虐待等案件，犯案者狠下毒手的原因则值得查究。两年前，我国发生了一起令人神共愤的惨案——一名巫裔女童失踪后被凶手以极其残忍、不人道的手法虐待至死。究竟是什么因素导致干案者忍心对一名无辜小孩做出此等禽兽不如之事？罪犯心理的不健康，变态，极可能是因为没有接受良好及正常的教育。据报告，涉及强奸、轮奸等案件的也包括青少年，这些本应是我国栋梁的大好青年竟做出这等不堪之事，证明了他们并没有被灌输正确的道德观，这也点出了我国教育的失败：不重视人文与道德教育，致使国民道德沦丧。教育欠善导致孩子的思想容易扭曲，是非不分，长大成人后危害社会。

社会治安不靖，最大的受害者是人民百姓。罪案的发生，让人民时时刻刻提心吊胆、寝食难安，担心自己或家人成为受害者。每天生活在安全没有保障的环境里，人民很快便会对国家、政府失去信心。谁不想安居乐业？人民与其活在恐慌之中，还不如移居海外，图一片安宁。若我国治安不得改善，且继续恶化，恐怕马来西亚不再是人民心中的理想家园。

一个国家之各体系皆环环相扣、息息相关。社会治安亮起了红灯，除人民身受其害，国家经济受影响在所难免。经济的蓬勃发展有赖于旅游业及外来投资，而现今的治安状况将严重打击我国的旅游业，外来投资者撤资也在所难免。外国游客考虑及我国治安，即使美景当前，相信他们也不愿冒险到罪案横生的地方游玩。倘若外国游客纷纷止步，我国旅游业必定蒙受一定程度的损失，续而对经济造成影响。若我国治安状况日益恶化，投资者有再多的宏图大计也不敢冒着亏损的风险在我国投资。除此之外，来马留学的海外学生若不幸成为罪案的受害者，原本有意前来留学的外国学生肯定对我国避如蛇蝎，对于我国的负面评语恐怕便不胫而走了。

俗语说：“亡羊补牢，未为迟也”，社会治安既已恶化至让人担忧的程度，我们便应及时找出症结所在，对症下药，以求早日解决。维护社会治安是全民的责任，警方固然职责所在，但人民百姓亦责无旁贷。孤掌难鸣，单靠警方取缔罪案是不足够的，人民也必须互助互协，给予警方适当的配合。警方需加派警员巡逻罪案黑区，以及延长警员巡逻的时间，以防趁着夜晚为非作歹的不法之徒有机可乘。最近，槟州警方实行“雨伞行动”，以守株待兔的方式，减低了该州的犯罪率。民众见罪案发生，有义务立刻报警，这是减少罪案发生之关键。不管警方抑或是民众，都有必要检讨自身的效率与态度，方可有效遏止罪案。警民合作，双管齐下，社会才有机会恢复昔日的和平与安宁。

事出必有因，罪犯之所以犯罪，是种种因素导致的，包括教育。若孩子所接受的教育，无论家庭教育或学校教育，没能灌输他们正确的道德观、教导他们分辨是非黑白，孩子长大后犯罪又能怪谁？孩子尚年幼时，家长有责任教导他们正确的价值观，学校也应注重学生学术科目以外的道德及人文教育。家庭教育与学校教育不分轻重，两者相辅相成，孩子长大后才能造福社会，而不是反其道而行。另外，已被警方逮捕的罪犯，尤其是心理变态的犯人，必须接受适当的心理治疗，以确保他们服刑完毕后不会重蹈覆辙，继续危害社会。除此，执法当局有必要修改法律条文，让犯案者为自己犯下的错误付出相等的代价。以强奸犯为例，其最高刑罚是有期徒刑，须知强奸案的受害者将一生一世都活在阴影之中，所受的伤害是无法磨灭的，所以强奸犯的刑罚有必要从有期徒刑改为无期徒刑。法律须严惩犯案者，才能有效地保护人民。

古时候，将士们秉持着“有国才有家”的理念，用自己的性命守护国家与家园。国家是属于全体人民的，社会治安无可否认是全民的责任。大家应摒弃“各人自扫门前雪，不管他人瓦上霜”的态度，将孔圣人提倡的“大同”思想推己及人，相信“安全社会、亮丽家园”指日可待。

H1N1 is just around us

2009-07-25T16:43:00.002+08:00

Recently, we are having gazillion of practices on choir and choral speaking, which are to be performed during Malam Kebudayaan on 14th August. However, some of our seniors have fallen sick and the practice was cancelled as they could not make it. Yesterday, Ms. Sathya who is in-charge of scholars told us that our condo will be disinfected today. She did not mention a thing about H1N1 but I guess the reason they want to disinfect our rooms is very clear: someone among us is tested positive for H1N1 virus, probably one of our seniors. This morning, the cleaners came and according to them, they were told to disinfect our rooms because of H1N1. They did not do much but just sprayed some disinfectant liquid on our door knobs and also used it to mop our floor.

I believe in destiny. If something is to come to you, no matter how, it will still come. There are lots of unpredictable things around us, need not to worry something which is unknown, right? I am going back to Penang next Saturday and will back to KL again on the following Wednesday.

Personal essay for Malaysian Studies' E-Forum

2009-07-22T23:32:00.002+08:00

How much Malaysia has changed since March 8 2008 election?

Malaysia’s 12th General Election which fell on 8th March 2008 was the most remarkable election in the country’s history. The outcome of this election caused a political tsunami which has shaken the nation until today, as nobody expected Barisan Nasional would lose the governance of 5 states i.e. Perak, Pulau Pinang, Selangor and Kelantan, and also unable to secure 2/3 majority in the Parliament. I would say the victory claimed by the opposition over the 5 states was a big surprise for the whole Malaysia. From the result of this election, it can be clearly seen that the people’s mind has changed, they are ready to speak up their opinions and they feel it is time for the leaders to know what they really want. The young generation starts making choices for the future of the country by electing representatives who are willing to serve the public. We can see the people of Malaysia are sending their messages to the government through election, which has proved the existence of democracy in Malaysia. Basically, the most crucial message from the people is THIS COUNTRY NEEDS TO CHANGE! People of Malaysia “witness” and “experience” the corruption of the government, they are the victims who suffer the consequences of political corruption. The democratic way used by people to call a halt to current situation and ask for more efficient administration, transparent management and clean government through election shows the mind of people has changed to become more mature in the way of thinking and making decisions for the nation.

Political changes which occur are definitely undeniable. As Barisan Nasional has lost 2/3 majority in the Parliament, it can no longer dominate the government. The opposition is part of the Parliament now, both Barisan Nasional and Pakatan Rakyat start criticising each other’s ideas and policies. It shows check and balance in the government, which is desired by the people. The former president of MCA, Datuk Seri Ong Ka Ting resigned from his post after the loss of MCA in election. The highest post in MCA was taken over by Datuk Ong Tee Keat in party election in October. Besides, members of Barisan Nasional started blaming the former Prime Minister, Tun Abdullah Ahmad Badawi for the great loss of Barisan Nasional in the election and hence the transition of power to Datuk Seri Mohd. Najib Tun Abdul Razak (the current Prime Minister) was urged. Eventually, the transition of power took place in March 2009 and after the transition of power, the portfolio was restructured. Apart from that, the state of Perak which was initially under the governance of the opposition was dramatically “snatched” back by Barisan Nasional after the hopping of several representatives from Pakatan Rakyat to Barisan Nasional. Perak crisis had caused instability in the state and also triggered the anger of the people.

After Datuk Seri Mohd. Najib Tun Abdul Razak was sworn in as Malaysia’s 6th Prime Minister, numerous new policies have been introduced, such as 1Malaysia concept to win back the heart of the people and 11 measures were announced upon the 100th day of his administration. After suffering the loss in March 8th 2008 election, Barisan Nasional has been trying hard to gain back the support of people by introducing more liberal and people-friendly policies. The most controversial Internal Security Act (ISA) is also to be reviewed, according to the Prime Minister. These are welcomed by people, regardless what is the motive hidden behind. The latest change in government policy is the reversal of PPSMI, the teaching medium of Mathematics and Science subjects is changed from English back to Malay again after 6 years implementation of PPSMI. This change, however, has upset the people, especially parents.

In a nutshell, since March 8th 2008 general election, Malaysia has changed in terms of political aspect and policies, while at the same time, people also changed their way of thinking to become more mature when making decisions. Apparently, the result of March 8th 2008 election had reflected the views of the people towards the government and it is a signal to the government that the people want to change. The political turmoil is actually necessary as the outcome of March 8th 2008 election had pushed the government to start making changes. Despite whatsoever changes are to be made, people’s interest should be given first priority and stability in the country should also be restored as soon as possible.The slogan “People First, Performance Now” must be put into practice instead of using it merely as propaganda.

Back to Penang

2009-07-17T08:11:00.002+08:00

I'm going back to Penang this saturday. Actually I should have waited for the raya holiday to go back, but I need to get some books from my sister, so I will back to Penang for 2 days. :P

Scholar

2009-06-30T14:05:00.003+08:00

I have been in KL for about one week, just feel like telling something about scholars' life. As one of the JPA scholars, life has not been easy for me. There are very high expectations on us from lecturers and of course our sponsor. We, who are given sholarships to pursue our studies are expected to achieve the best and get into the top universities, for example, Oxford and Cambridge. That's what we should do as we are using the tax payers' money, we are one of those investment by the government. We have stress, we have pressures, from everyone around us. I'm not complaining about the life as a scholar. I, myself, am very clear of what I should do and what I have been expected to achieve. The main reason I'm telling all this is that getting a scholarship, regardless what type of scholarships, is not as easy as everyone thinks. When you are shortlisted to be one of the scholars, it is not the end and that does not mean you are assured a bright future. It is just the beginning of everything, there is a very long way in front of you which you have to go through thick and thin and also lots of difficulties. Your future is not assured by anyone but you yourself. The only key to success is your hard effort. When you are willing to work hard for it, there is no reason why you cannot get what you want. I'm grateful to be given this chance to live as a scholar because it is an opportunity for me to make myself more prepared for future challenges. One of the scholars, who is also my friend said," it's time for us to shine." I agree with him, grab the opportunities in front of you and give your utmost best towards it.

风影

2009-06-18T20:28:00.002+08:00

明天一早，风影将启程到吉隆坡，开始到新环境生活。虽然搬迁对风影而言不是新鲜事，风影不怕新环境，但现在的风影心里五味杂陈。前面的路是平坦无坡还是坎坷不平，风影不知道。但总要对自己有个要求，生活才有目标。风影要自己坚强地生活，不管是什么路，风影都要走到尽头，接受成功之阳的洗礼。

生命快结束的那刻

2009-06-06T23:20:00.002+08:00

风影只差那么一点，就要失去了生命。今天去游泳，其实没有游泳课，风影就纯粹想自己游，碰巧遇见教练给一个男孩上游泳课。由于仍是初学者，风影从来都只在浅处悠游，可不知怎么的，风影游着游着，开始发起了白日梦，并没有专心于游泳，所以从浅处游到了深处也浑然不知，累了，风影要停下来休息，怎知够不着地。风影已精疲力尽，根本不能再游到浅处，况且风影没想到自己是在深处，身体就开始往下沉。风影一直在挣扎，脑海里很清楚地知道应该要喊教练，可是来不及了，风影只能本能地发出叫喊声。池边有两个中年人，风影似乎看见他们朝风影指了指，那一刻，风影在想：为什么你们不伸出手拉我一把？之后回想起，他们这么做也没错，毕竟不是救生员便没有资格救人。挣扎了一会儿，远远地瞧见教练朝风影的方向游过来了，可是风影已经不能支撑下去，终于放弃挣扎。风影放弃的那刹那，心想：自己会被送进医院？还是命丧黄泉呢？幸好，真的是幸好，有人抓住了风影的右手，其实这个时候的风影已几乎失去了一半的意识，之后教练才把风影拉回浅处。因为方才的挣扎，一回到浅处，风影的腿立刻就软了下来，并且大口大口的吸气。许是学游泳的关系，挣扎的当儿，风影没有喝入池水，只是一直在闭气，可也因为太长时间的闭气，才导致风影几乎失去意识。之后被教练说了两句，想想也确实是风影自己太大意，若不是刚巧教练有在，若不是刚巧有人瞧见正在挣扎的风影，想必风影与自杀无异，幸好。

问心

2009-06-03T23:45:00.002+08:00

还有两个星期左右，风影将离开槟城，也离开家乡。在此时，风影问了自己的心一个问题：槟城是个你舍不得的地方吗？答案：不是。一个地方的变化在乎于它的发展，它总不可能消失。只有人，这个岛屿上的人，才是让风影舍不得的吧。只能说，时间是种很可怕的东西，它的可怕之处在于它可以改变一个人的心，甚至是一个人的思想。风影不能说自己非常喜欢这个岛上的人，但是熟悉，但是习惯。是没有很喜欢，但已经习惯了、熟悉了，就是因为太习惯、太熟悉，所以开始依赖他们的存在。风影常常称某人为“黄美燕”，某人为“阿美”，某人为“美女”，这些算不得什么，但现在这些都已是过去的往往了。现在，风影还记得，那以后又如何？想必风影会忘了，虽然不是故意，但是在不知不觉中，一切都淡忘了。现下的这份不舍可算是对这些过往的珍惜了。

想必风影又要起步了

2009-06-03T22:36:00.002+08:00

风影刚得知，这个月的20号就得到Damansara 的KDU College报到，在那完成两年的A-Level，之后才到英国三年。一直摇摆不定，现在总算清楚了，风影以后的路。停下来休息的这段时间里，风影总算是听从了心的意愿，做了自己想做的事。服役完毕后，风影领了成绩，办了奖学金的申请手续，四月中去了澳洲旅行两个星期，是风影独自一人拖着行李踏上旅途的。度假回来以后，知道自己于大学预科班有个位子，风影当时也不知是喜是忧，就在恍惚中作了准备。预科班开学前几日，获知自己终于得到海外奖学金，风影是兴奋的。等待信件的当儿，风影铁了心，一定要逼自己去上游泳课，最后也当真是报了名。学游泳不如想象中可怕，算是学会了，总算了却自己的心愿之一。风影现在于一间律师楼当学徒，其实也就只是当个柜台书记，但至少有机会接触一些法定文件，聊胜于无吧。

有人欢喜有人愁

2009-05-10T17:29:00.003+08:00

公共服务局海外奖学金的幸运者名单已公布了，很庆幸，风影是其中一名。键入身份证号码检查的那刻，风影的心是紧张的，还有的就是忐忑不安。得知自己是其中一名幸运儿，风影是由衷的高兴。每每这类的成绩公布，总是有人欢喜有人愁，得到的人自是与身旁的人分享这份喜悦，希望落空的人伴随着的却是失望和心灰意冷。风影，身置其中，欢喜当然有，但欢喜的背后也有一丝不可忽略的担忧：想要持续获得奖学金支助，必须下的苦功也是双倍的。已是其中一名幸运儿，风影并非不知足，只是认为得到或失去，都不一定是件好事或坏事。不是说了：命里有时终须有，命里无时莫强求。幸运儿们，前面接下来的路肯定会比从前艰辛许多，压力会更大，你们准备好了吗？失望的各位，塞翁失马，焉知非福？也许你注定要走另一条路而已，只要路牌都是指向成功，有什么不一样吗？

如果人能简单一些，何尝不好？

2009-05-07T00:27:00.002+08:00

风影发觉很多时候自己都会去揣测别人某个举动背后的原因，这是不是好事？揣测了，自然会怀疑这人这么做是不是有什么目的？为什么要这么做？只要稍花心思想想，便会认为别人对自己的好绝对不单纯。无可否认啊，活在这个现实社会的人，若没有这份心思，又如何能存活下去？人的思想稍稍单纯一些，便受骗、吃亏。人与人之间，如此复杂，你耍心计，我使手段，活得还真辛苦。虽然是风影痴心妄想，但如果人能简单一些，何尝不好？

拭目以待

2009-05-04T23:01:00.003+08:00

前阵子才得知自己被录取进入大学预科班，下星期就要入学了，想起来真有点不可思议。风影似乎还没准备好，面前的路却好像已经铺好了，这是好事还是坏事？哈哈，虽然风影很想得到海外奖学金，但风影也明白：命里有时终须有，命里无时莫强求。究竟以后会走一条怎么样的路？那就拭目以待吧。

1st time travel on my own.....

2009-04-11T07:50:00.000+08:00

I am surfing the Internet in Melbourne International Airport now. tired... exhausted.... My next flight to Sydney will be at 12pm, boarding time 11.30am....

可知当下的天真会让你后悔莫及？

2009-04-04T19:56:00.002+08:00

“天真无邪”，在风影看来，这四字唯刚坠地的婴儿称得上，此外的天真一律可与“笨”等同视之。

何时还我清明盛世？

2009-03-28T00:36:00.003+08:00

笔者虽少不更事，但也可清楚地看到我国自去年3.08以来，动荡不堪的政治局丝毫没有改善的趋势。纵然有人不停地强调：“我国仍是一片太平盛世”，但事实胜于雄辩。
我国位高权重的部长们成日发表各种“伟论”，为了种种小事大事或是芝麻绿豆事争论不休，美其名曰：“为民请命，维护各族利益”，实则纯属口舌之争，为逞一时之气。当部长们唇枪舌战正进行得热烘烘之际，不知各心明眼亮的选民有否后悔把自己手中那神圣的一票投予眼前正口沫横飞地发表言论之人？笔者才疏学浅，却也知道一个国家要继续向前迈进，首要条件便是人民团结，领导英名。请问各才富五车的当权者，您们的所作所为是在团结人民？抑或是在煽风点火，希望人民四分五裂呢？看客呀，若论及我国政府的所作所为，不知谁可告知：我们该竖起拇指大声赞好，还是失望地摇头长叹？
笔者乃曾参加国民服务的学员之一。服役的当儿，笔者直想：我国何时变得如此富有了？据笔者所知，每名国民服务学员的食物津贴为每日二十令吉。试问：这些年来，全国上下有成千上万名学员，单只于食物上，一天就花了我国多少钱？或有人说：“学员们一天吃六餐呀！”，相信也用不着给予如此丰厚的食物津贴吧？学生参赛津贴：即便一天，三令吉！
笔者疑惑：是我国政府过度体恤学员，还是不懂得精打细算？再者，当局为学员们举办无数讲座会、座谈会，时派发免费的彩色文件夹，还附有精美原子笔，实是奢侈之至的行径！当时才惊觉：原来人民缴了税，那大笔大笔的金钱就是花在这些无关紧要的小事上！我国的帐簿上每年出现的赤字皆是因为我们的政府不懂开源节流，继续挥霍无度，才致使我国的财库入不敷出。
现今的马来西亚犹如一个百病缠身者，再不及早对症下药，只怕亡羊补牢，为时晚矣！此时此刻偏逢历年来最严重的经济风暴，我国可谓：破屋偏逢连夜雨，漏船又遇打头风。尚请在上的当政者各司其职，在下的人民安守本分，早日还我清明盛世！

(这是风影的一些看法，所以写下来了。）

出乎意料

2009-03-27T19:20:00.003+08:00

今天刚刚获知，早前申请的khazanah global scholarship，风影并没有被录取。这是风影预料之外的，或许是太自信于自己的成绩，申请时总很有信心自己肯定会被录取，现在却有点“一场欢喜一场空”的感觉呢。毕竟少一个希望了，风影怎能不失望？能做的风影也做了，譬如：写信上诉。可是，风影不知道这一封上诉信能否让当局改变主意、替风影扭转乾坤？人就是人，多倔强的人有些时候也得向命运低头。这话听起来是不是有点无奈？风影不会为自己感到无奈，因为曾几何时，风影告诉过一个朋友：为什么要感到无奈？别去思考一些自己无力改变的事实，做自己能做的就足够了。风影能向命运低头，但不能停留在原地，此路不能行，那便走另一条，总有一条可以行的。

船到桥头自然直

2009-03-25T23:32:00.005+08:00

一个星期以后，风影将要到kepala batas出席JPA scholarship 的面试。此时此刻的风影，心里有些紧张，更多的是忐忑不安。为了这个面试，爸爸特别向公司请了假，明明是忙得抽不出时间，却还是请了假。风影的事，常常让家人操心，很多时候为了风影就必须牺牲时间与精神。家人对风影自然是有期盼的，他们都希望风影能顺利得到奖学金，风影何尝不想？

现在的风影也只能尽力为面试作准备，是属于风影的终究是风影的，不属于风影的强求也没用，一切就听天由命，有句话说：船到桥头自然直。

风影的伯娘

2009-03-24T17:35:00.000+08:00

昨晚，风影给一个从前照顾了风影好几年的伯娘打了电话。她一直都在槟城，可风影却很久没去探望她了。伯娘年过半百，是个老人家了，可昨晚风影跟她谈话间，发现她还能清楚记得很久以前的一些事。
风影跟她聊了不久，好像就没什么话题了。一小时的通话，不知有多少时间是沉默中过的，可风影知道伯娘是想跟风影说说话的，许是因为很久都不曾这样跟风影聊天了吧。挂了电话，心里流过一丝温暖。伯娘在别人眼中算不得和蔼可亲，也没什么人喜欢她的，但风影心里明白，有些时候伯娘也是疼爱风影的。伯娘的两个孩子，也就是风影的堂哥，都搬到国外工作了，每年也只能回来探望她和伯父一次，虽然堂姐也在槟城，但毕竟已结婚生子，工作忙碌，也没什么时间能回家看他们。伯父伯娘俩人，很多时候也是在寂寞中度过，风影回到槟城后是应该去探望了。
人老了，最期盼的总是孩子的那份心意。

洗车原来也这般辛苦

2009-03-23T23:57:00.000+08:00

姐姐念北方大学，她的车子让给风影了。昨天从槟城回到家乡，近三个月未曾踏入家门，倒也没有久违的感觉。今早吃过早餐就开始洗车，找了块布料把车子的里里外外擦干净，又用了吸尘器把车子吸得一尘不染，最后还把姐姐的东西给整理出来，工作完毕已是下午时分了。虽然家里有个印尼女佣，但风影生来性格挑剔，总觉还是亲自动手较好。只不过洗了一部车子，还是部小车，风影已汗流浃背，更觉腰酸背痛，想来是懒散惯了，竟洗车也觉辛苦。

风影本就不是勤劳之人，殊不知这第一次的洗车经验会否是最后一次、唯一一次？当懒虫战胜了挑剔的心理，想必女拥又多一份工作了。

如风似影

2009-03-23T23:42:00.000+08:00

这是风影的第一个部落格，是风影突然心血来潮才开的。如风似影，脑海中飘过这几个字，便以此为部落格命名了。风影也想当当随性之人，随心所欲地过日子，何尝不是美事一桩？